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Hindsight Is 20/20

What if you could go back 15 years…would you go?

My father, the first love of my life, decided to ask me this during a car ride we took yesterday. I immediately looked at him with a puzzled expression on my face. “Yea, as long as I could take back with me everything I know now,” I responded.

But..heres thing…
I actually did go back 15 years.

I had a moment alone that day and that’s when I had the epiphany. God has given me something that is rarely given in life. A reset!

15 years ago in September, my parents had just purchased the house they live in now, In October we moved in and I was entering my 7th grade year. Like most 12 and 13 year olds, I had no car. I was just starting my life as a “teen” and started going to functions that I wasn’t allowed to go to before due to “house rules”.

Do you see the reset yet? I actually am living in my second chance WITH EVERYTHING I KNOW NOW, my kids.

I moved back in the same house all over again 15 years later. I was just about to enter my 7th year of marriage. I have no means of transportation (lol) and I am starting my social life as a woman all over again. I’m doing things my husband didn’t allow me to do because of his “rules” for our marriage and as his wife. I was a stay at home mom for most of the time I was with my husband. How to be a wife and a mom to my kids are all I know. 

When I realized this, I also realized there is a significance about my life that is still unknown to me. Right now, though, the most rewarding thing about all of this is the joy of being able to look back and say it was worth it because of what is to come. Without going through what I had been going through, I would not be able to see the glory of  God walking me through this and to my victory. Hindsight is definitely 20/20.

Peace and Love,